TLDR: In this blog, I share how adhering to God's laws has helped me heal from trauma and abuse. I reflect on the consequences I’ve faced when I broke these laws, the importance of maintaining personal integrity, and the blessings of aligning my life with divine principles. I also share my experiences with compassion for those struggling with addiction and trauma.
In this post, I want to share how keeping God's law has helped me heal, especially as someone who has experienced trauma and abuse. This reflection continues thoughts I’ve shared before about covenant-making and keeping, and how divine principles play a vital role in my life.
Understanding My Anger Towards God
When I went through trauma, I often felt angry at God. That anger was a natural human response, and sometimes it even helped me process my feelings. Writing and prayer gave me an outlet. But I also realized that acting out of that anger by breaking God’s laws only led to more pain. God has always been willing to help me, but when I strayed from His laws, I faced the consequences of my choices.
The Consequences I’ve Faced for Breaking God’s Laws
I’ve come to see that God’s laws come with both conditions and blessings. When I live in harmony with them, I receive peace and strength. When I don’t, the results are painful. For example, in my past, I turned to alcohol and other substances to cope with trauma. They gave me temporary relief, but in the long run, they damaged my body and deepened my struggles.
The Impact of Substance Abuse in My Life
I know firsthand how destructive substance abuse can be. Alcohol, in particular, weakened my body and created health challenges I’m still recovering from. Looking back, I understand now that my addictions were an attempt to numb the pain. What I needed most wasn’t judgment but compassion and healing.
My Reflections on Tattoos and Piercings
Another area I’ve reflected on is the way I’ve treated my body. At one point, tattoos and piercings felt like a way to reclaim myself. But later, I noticed how they affected both my physical and emotional well-being. From what I’ve learned, scars, cuts, and even tattoos can disrupt the body’s natural energy flow. For me, they became reminders of choices I hadn’t fully thought through, and I’ve had to consider their long-term effects on my spirit and body.
The Sacred Nature of Sexuality in My Healing
Sexuality is one of the most beautiful and sacred gifts God has given us. But in my own journey, I learned the hard way that treating it casually only brought fragmentation and emptiness. Each intimate relationship I entered without commitment left me feeling like I’d given away a piece of myself. That kind of soul-fragmentation made healing harder and relationships more complicated.
Why Stable Relationships Matter to Me
I’ve also come to see how important it is to create a safe, stable environment for children. When I didn’t honor God’s laws about fidelity and commitment, I created instability not only for myself but also for those around me. That instability carries consequences that can ripple across generations, something I don’t want to pass on.
Why I Rely on God’s Laws
Over time, I realized how often humanity has complicated the simple truths God gave us. At their core, His commandments are about love—loving Him, loving one another, and cherishing His creation. When I strayed from that, chaos followed. But when I chose to treat His laws as a protective fence, I discovered they weren’t there to trap me but to keep me safe.
The Freedom I’ve Found in Obedience
Following God’s commandments has not bound me—it has freed me. As I’ve recommitted to my covenants and tried to walk in His ways, I’ve found deeper happiness and resilience. Healing is still an ongoing process for me, but I can see how obedience has strengthened me to face challenges I once thought impossible.
My Compassion for Others Struggling with Addiction
Because I know the pain of addiction, I feel deep compassion for anyone who’s still struggling. Addiction often starts as a way to survive overwhelming trauma, and judgment only makes the burden heavier. What people need most is understanding, patience, and love.
Conclusion
For me, healing from trauma has been possible because of God’s law. Keeping His commandments has helped me create space to recover, break free from addiction, and move toward wholeness. I’ve learned that true healing and fulfillment come not from escaping pain but from turning to God, living His principles, and showing compassion to myself and others along the way.